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Monday, 19 January 2009

above it all.

above all else, there is love. i believe in this and as far as i am aware i have done my very best to live by it. anything that may enter into my life, i put love above it. if that means that i have lost some friendships along the way due to it, so be it. right now, i am laying on my bed with laptop in front of me...what does that have to do with love? easy. my husband is playing video games with his head resting on my lower back. this, is a clean and clear example as to why i am so deeply in love with him. other guys that i have been with either are obsessed with SEX or are just plain out rude and ignore me completely. however, my dear J, even when he is playing video games lets me know that i am loved. does he do it out of habit or because he is actually attempting to let me know he loves me? i have questioned him on this and not once has he even thought about anything straying away from the fact that he just adores me and its the contact with me that makes him feel close to me. this, is how i know i am needed. i am wanted and very much loved. the little things that make me put love above all else.

Sunday, 11 January 2009

i don't know what your doing and i don't know where you are but i look up at that great big sky and i hope you're wishing on that same bright star. i wonder. i pray. i sleep alone and i cry alone and it's so hard living here all alone. so please, come home soon. i know that we're together even though we're far apart. and i wear my lucky necklace around my neck pressed to my heart. i imagine your touch, it's beautifulness and something that means so much. sometimes love needs a fighting chance so i'll wait my turn until it's our turn to dance. so please, i walk alone, i try alone, and i'll wait for you, come home soon.<3
Quote

''Because she is my heroin, my own personal crack cocaine. Because trying to say that I can get away from this will just be wasting time and lying to myself. Because she is my foil, the one who proved that, in the end, the geeky guy can still get the girl he always liked. Because she is my kryptonite, and that's probably why her eyes are so fucking green. But mainly, because I love her.''- Jose Miguel Urena
Theres nothing I can say to you,
nothing I could ever do,
to make you see,
what you mean to me,
all the pain the tears I cried,
still you never said goodbye,
and now I know,
how far you'd go.
I know I let you down,
but its not like that now,
this time I'll never let you go.
I will be all that you want,
and get myself together,
cause you keep me from falling apart.
All my life
I'll be with you forever,
to get you through the day,
and make everything okay.
I thought that I had everything,
I didn't know what life could bring,
but now I see,
honestly.
You're the one thing I got right,
the only one I let inside,
now I cant breathe,
cause you're here with me.
And if I let you down,
I'll turn it all around,
cause I would never let you go.
Without you,
I can't breathe,
I'm never ever gunna let you leave,
You're all I got.
You're all I want.
Without you,
I don't know what I'd do
I could never live a day without you,
here,
with me,
do you see,
you're all I need.
reconnect

he's sexier and more beautiful than ever. his brown eyes gleam when he looks at me. i love it. i love him.
his lips are softer than i had imagined that they would be. hes also taller than i remember ;)
he teases me of being short. thing is, i love it! he tickles me and cant keep that smile off his handsome face.
staring contest? psh, i win. just because he will let me.

he called to say the cab got lost. there was wind blowing in the background as if he were in a tornado.
i stepped out back to feel the wind blowing as it was on the phone. i ran inside knowing that regardless what he said,
he would be here momentarily. i sprinted to the front door and looked through the glass only to see him walking up my driveway.
as if i werent shaking enough before, i began to tremble uncontrollably at the sight of him.
i grasped the door knob and attempted to turn it...it took 3 tries before my hand was steady enough to turn it all the way.
i stepped outside and almost immediately into his arms. So This Is What Heaven Feels Like. he noticed my shaking,
how could he not? besides that and the fact that no words came from my mouth except ''Oh My God''
i think he got the hint that i was happy/nervous/excited/every friggin emotion...EVER!
the embrace was unrecordable the kiss was bliss. the only thing going through my mind was: hes home.
hes home. oh my God, hes home. hes holding me. hes kissing me. i was literally going moment to moment.